Nikki passed away on Monday. I don’t have dogs anymore. It was a bit of a surprise even though she was well over 12 years old. With Shadow we kinda knew it was coming, not that it made it any easier. I was over at my parents’ Monday morning, played with my dog, and she sat at my feet while I watched TSN. Then I went home and got a call not two hours later. I’m glad my brother was in town. To tell him over the phone, again, would have been brutal. It’s almost ridiculous how much dogs affect your life; their absence is so keenly felt instantly. The whole family has had trouble with old habits. I check the water dish, my brother closes the basement door so she doesn’t get into trouble. We all open the front door slowly since she likes to sleep at the base of it and we don’t want to hit her. It’s going to be hard. We decided to wait a few months and then revisit if we’re going to get another dog. This all sucks. I’m still trying to work towards OA but it’s been slow. I’m glad my nights and mornings are busy this week so I don’t have time to think too much. It’s the afternoons that have been so hard.
{ 9 comments }
So sorry Jenn, a dog is the best friend you can have. Been there trough a few times, is a bad feeling that will stick a while :(
I wish you strength.
Jenn, I’m truly sorry to hear about your loss :(
Nikki was obviously well loved. None of us can ask for more than that.
Sorry for your loss Jenn. Been through the same situation when my dog passed away. I still think of him to this day; it’s been 7 years. I get all teary eyed too. He was so scared of thunderstorms. Every time he felt one approaching, he’d come straight into my room and lie down next to the computer chair I was sitting in.
Deepest condolences.
The the fine strands of grief entwine tightly with the heavy braid of love.
Jenn, I am so sorry to hear about Nikki.
Stay strong
SDMF
Sorry for your loss.
My condolences.
Thank you all for the kind words, I truly appreciate it.
Comments on this entry are closed.